For The Girl I Love The Most

For The Girl I Love the Most

I cry when I see you with him
I cry when I know that you are with him
But just now
It was probably my last cry
I hope so
And I know you hope so too
I don't want to cry over nothing
It's hard for me to get over with
You have the other one to love
While I don't have any other girl to love
Execpt you and only you


You are the best girlfriend I've ever had
Even though it was only 4 months and 18 days
It was the most beautiful 4 months and 18 days I've ever had
I'm not exaggerating it
I really mean it
We've never fought during that time
And I realized how beautiful love can be


If it's for your happiness
I will try to understand
If it's really the best for you
I will also try to understand
Even though it's really hard and painful to me
To be seperated from you
I will, once again, try to understand
And I will surely pray for your happiness
Forever and ever

Even though I will never be your boyfriend anymore
I want to be your bestfriend
That you can count on
I will be there for you
Whenever you are in trouble
Whenever you are hurt
No matter where I am
No matter how busy I am
I will definitely come to you right away
To be there for you
To comfort you
To give you support


I can only hope
That I can be a good bestfriend for you
Thank you for the most beautiful moment
Such beautiful memories
I hope I will not cry anymore
I must be strong

Girl,
Still I want to say
From my deepest heart

I LOVE YOU

Have U Ever?

Have u ever felt so lonely? I do.
Have u ever felt jealous? I do.
Have u ever felt so depressed until it feels like something in your heart has been taken out roughly? I do.
I've been through many kinds of these hurtful feelings, but still I'm so sad when I'm going through it again...

Sometimes we, the human beings, can be so selfish. I'm one of them. I feel like I will have 'it' for as long as I want to, but in fact, 'it' will leave me someday. Here, the word 'it' refers to nothing, no one, nowhere. I'm such a selfish person that hope for 'it' to be with me. Is 'it' also selfish? I don't really know, and I don't want to judge. I don't have the right to judge people in my own opinions.

Why do I always feel like I'm the one cause all the troubles around me? Well it could be me, but is it always me? I just don't know what to do, how to feel... I know that this day would come sooner or later. Whenever I think about it, I always think I can handle it. But? Haha...

I'm nothing in this world, nobody will really care about me. I don't think anyone will care how I feel, coz I myself don't know how I feel, and I don't really care... Terrible? More than that. Sad? Such a simple word.

I don't know what to write anymore. This is the worst blog I've ever written, with all my mind mixed up like this...

One last thing, I write this post with nothing to achieve, just a matter of somethings... I write this without knowing what will happen next. So silly me...

I'd better be someone else, in a different city, in a different country, and in a different world... I wanna go away from this selfish world, world that's full of selfish things, deceptions...

Have u ever felt like I do?

Stupid me...